long looong time

On the 27th:
Way to go, Esme, you just plugged a 120V cable in to a 220V tomado. The internet hasn't been working since yesterday night and I feel down because it's the only way to be in touch with the ones I love and fancy. I just had to walk 30 minutes in the rain (it rains every day, folks) so that didn't cheer me up, either. I can't do my homework because I'd need the internet for it but at least now I have the time to read and watch movies. Like.. really WATCH them, concentrate on them and not just have them in a little box on the side of the screen while I'm chatting with my friends on MSN.

So, yesterday I finally saw the first very obvious gay guy. I also saw a very lezzie kinda girl one day but I don't know if it was just the haircut or the way she was walking. But this guy.. oh man! The expressions, the hair, the pink blouse and tight jeans, the rambling with girls and everything. I saw him while were were on this lecture which was about softwares and softas livres – free softwares. I wanted to watch and listen to the teacher and not the interpreter. He told lots of things about Linux and many times I wanted to raise my hand up and tell everyone Linus T. ..is Finnish! I didn't though.. no one wouldn't have seen the point except for me. The next class was about some mechanical models and the teacher mentioned Nokia. I get so proud of Finland, especially if I'm abroad.

I don't really get tanned since it's always raining and if it's not, then it's not sunny. It smells like wet asphalt outside and I like it.

One thing about my sister; I didn't know or remember her laughter was like it is now. Maybe it has changed through the years, who knows? But I really like to hear her laugh, it makes me happy as well.

Now it's time to sit back (not literally since I'm sitting on a bar stool kind of a chair), relax, have a beer (Antarctica cerveja, I really need this now) and watch good movies. Now I'm watching Gran Torino with the Great Clint Eastwood. You should totally check it out!

I don't know when I'll be putting this on the net, let's see. Sorry that I have nothing to tell you about rain forests and monkeys.. Every exotic thing in this journal is about fruit I guess.

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Still no sign of the internet and I'm getting desperate. We had a wireless connection here before but since I broke it there's only the normal cable-internet thing. But guess what, my brother-in-law is so furious for the damage that he won't let me use that cable either. Damnit.

buhuu i'm 5

"Efeitos desastrosos, coprometendo a sobrevivência da instituiçao", dear diary. Yeah well everyone who knows Spanish SHOULD understand, but "analisando impactos e calculando riscos" and "classificaçao dos impactos", and I start to understand administration! I understand even though the teacher pronounces the letter "r" in a very strange way..
When I'm back I can speak with Brazilian sign language and Portuguese and I can also tell about administration and economics in Portuguese. How funny is that..

I guess my sis thinks I'm an immature moron. Maybe it's just because she wants to take care of me, but now I feel such a child ("You can't wear that!", "That's not how you answer the phone!", "You have to go to the gym!", "You're pants look like they belong to an old grandpa!", "What are those? Shorts?!", "You won't wake up that early, for sure.. look what happened this morning!"). Aaaaaaah I try not to think about it otherwise I will become sad.

I went to the supermarket just an hour ago and I want to share my shoppings with you :-D
* Soy sauce
* Soy
* Apple juice with soy
* Tomato sauce
* Vegetable noodles
* Rucola
* Salad
* Green olives
* Guaraná drink
* Mango
* Bread
* Passion-fruit
* Papaya

adminstraçao

Yesterday my sister just threw me in to a yoga class. What an easy way to start learning Portuguese, haha. After that I went to IESB and attended an adminstration class. I kinda understood something but the subject was so difficult I wouldn't have understood it in Finnish, either. The deaf person there was very introvert so I didn't get to use sign language at all.

Today the class was very different. The other deaf person was very lively and wanted to talk to me all the time. I learnt oh so many Brazilian signs and I taught her and the interpreter some Finnish ones. Everyone seemed to be interested in my presence.
Later I talked Brazilian / Finnish sign language or Spanish to the interpreter and she spoke only Portuguese and Brazilian sign language. It went very well and I'm happy.

Just ate a mango and now it's time for a nap..

fruit heaven

Today I finally got some money with my dearest Visa Electron. It didn't work at the airport or maybe it was just because I didn't have any money at my account that day. Who knows! Today Luciano showed me their neighbourhood so I could explore it alone some day. I have many (maybe too many) targets for this trip; by Monday I have to start talking Portuguese otherwise I will kick my butt hard (if it even is possible..), I have a free 3-day membership to Luciano's favourite gym starting from Wednesday (and I've always tried to avoid these kind of things if I have to do it alone, but maybe I just have to teach myself to be all by myself sometimes), I have my school things to do and I really really want to do them and I don't want to be this fat and white as sheet when I get back to Finland.

All these fruit and vegetables. I could become a loonie! Maybe I already am. Today we bought more strange fruit (hahaa, Strange Fruit is my nickname in MSN messenger if someone didn't know already) I can taste.

Ps. by the way, the thing with my crush.. Now I think it's better for me to just let it be this way but I'm gonna have to try to stop thinking about her because it's making me crazy. And I hate it if something or someone makes me feel this way, because I kinda think it's pathetic.

just some..

I wonder why my brother-in-law doesn't seem to understand how important it is for me if he calls me by my real name? My sister makes a real effort in calling me like I want to be called and I really appreciate her for that.

I've been thinking about ending my stupid crush. If you know a way out of fancying someone, could you please tell me?

I'm very excited because today I should go the university or somewhere.
And I've been planning my summer. It contains Provinssirock, Helsinki Pride, Ruisrock and a trip to Turkey. I should also find time for working. I hope my boss understands me and gives me some shifts even though I won't always be there for her..

the first

My flights went all fine. The third (and longest) one was the best even though it took over 9hours. I read one book by one of my favourite writers, Maeve Binchy, slept, watched four movies and ate the bread I had taken with me. Those mofos make me pay for the vegan food I request and then they keep on giving me cheese omelets and stuff like that. Then I just had to be sure there really was dairy in the food and after having a bitter taste in my mouth I felt very awful. Later on also got stomach ache.. Then I just had to put my food aside. I also drank red wine, wrote my diary and daydreamt.
I almost promised myself to forget I have a crush on this girl from Finland. Let's see what happens. I'm (still) a bit paranoid because I'm not getting any messages from her.

We were in a Japanese Restaurant yesterday. It was my first time in that kind of a place and I had never eaten sushi before. I tasted a lot of flavours I had no idea about before. I tried to learn how to pronounce Brazilian Portuguese from the label of a soy bottle.

This morning it was very sunny and 27 Celsius degrees. It was the morning God created woman. Before that God created a big sister, who (with the help of God) created her little sister to become a feminine .. something. Well, I sprayed Axe twice as much as I usually do, just to make sure I wasn't going crazy. We went to the park and it was awesome; I'd really love to go there for walks later on! I also drank Cóco (not cocó..) water with a straw.
After that we went to my brother-in-law's home where we had a lovely dinner all together. Now I'm too tired for writing any longer. I'm gonna be back in business tomorrow!